1 month and a week or so.

Ang totoo nyan, namimiss ko na. As in namimis ko na talaga. Wala na akong mahugot na inspirasyon at kilig. Wala na akong maramdamang kakaibang kaba sa dibdib. Namimis na kita sobra. Pati yung moments nating walang pwedeng dumaig sa pagka cute.

Tayo na ang cute. Miss na kita da da da dar.

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Sobrang pagod ko kanina. Habang bumabyahe saka ko na realized MAHIRAP maghanap buhay. mahirap ang bumuhay ng pamilya. Kaya yung mga kabataang may mga boyfriend at girlfriend na nagbabasa nito, ok lang uminom, magbilyar, magbarkada, bar hopping at kung ano ano pa. Wag lang mag drugs at sumobra sa mga “bisyo” kasi sobrang hirap kumita ng pera. Sobrang hirap sa realidad ng buhay. Wag na wag din kayong mag premarital sex dahil mahirap pag nagbunga. Baby is a blessing. Pero sana yung may ipapakin kayong sarili nyo, may ibubuhay kayo na galing sa dugo at pawis nyo. Dahil ang kapal sobrang kapal ng muka nyo kung sa magulang nyo kayo aasa pagkatapos gumawa ng kasalanan.

Nasa una ang sarap, huli ang hirap. Ang panget sa buhay noon.

Kumayod muna bago ang sex at landian. Mahirap ang buhay ngayon.

Matuto muna bago magpakasarap.

Pinaka natutunan ko ngayong araw na ito. Ang hirap magdesisyon pero nagdadasal ako sa Panginoon.

Laban lang habang may buhay. Hwaiting!

I saw him in a random place and in a random time.

I am talking about Daniel Padilla. I saw him in Trinoma! That kid is so tall and handsome!

I want to take a picture but I don’t have a camera. He’s nice with the highschool fans though.

And while I was waiting for my friend to go out of the Bench store, he walked in front of me and i’m sure he glance at me a little. I don’t know. can’t tell. he’s wearing rayban that makes him look so awesome kid.

WOO! JM nalang mga teh!!

Talk about feelings.

Alam mo yung feeling na andami daming mong dapat gawin pero nararamdaman mong magkakasakit ka?

BAKIT. Bakit kailangan ngayon pa kung kelan kailangan mo ng lakas??

I miss everyone.

Pinaiikot mo lang ako.

Siguro kaya hindi nananalo ang lola ko ng jackpot sa lotto dahil lagi niyang sinasabi saakin na,

“Kapag nanalo ako ng Jackpot, isang libo sayo.”

Seryoso? Isang libo? sa halos ilang milyon, isang libo lang? Generous ha.

Nagpasa kami ng resume kanina. Doon nag te training si chuva ngayon. Kaya daw gusto ko dun dahil andun sya. Pero ang totoo gusto ko dun kasi madali lang ang transpo. maganda yung hotel. sabi ng kaibigan namin, masarap daw ang pagkain at libre. marami pa syang tip. Yung fact na andun siya, eh bonus nalang kung sakaling tawagan kami.

Naghihintay pa rin ako. Araw araw na nga akong nagdarasal. Keep the faith lang.

Hindi na ako kumakain pag bumabyahe. Kasi nasuka na ako nung last walk in namin. Nakakaloka lang dahil na trauma ako bigla.

Sobrang nakakapagod. Halos parang nagtatrabaho na kami.

Ayoko na ulit maglakad ng ganun kahaba sa makati!!! pwede naman palang tumawid dun sa harap lumakad pa kami paikot arrrrrrrrrrrrgh.

Salamat at buhay pa ako. Yun lang. Thank you Lord.

Two amazing books in ONE amazing year. (two short book reviews in one.)

My bestfriend finally has a boyfriend. FYI, her very first after her first love “unwillingly” dumped her. She was, of course, excited about the whole boyfriend thingy and I understand it, it’s her first afterall. So we’re all excited as well. But the first meeting was unpleasant. And as I observe her and the guy, I little by little get irritated because their connection were odd and very…. awkward. I mean the guy was sooooo hyper. So hyper it’s getting on my nerves already. He’s not funny, he’s weird and not really interesting. There’s something I don’t really approve about the way he joke, the way he talked with us and with my bestfriend… He’s so ABnormal and I dislike it. He’s so pilosopo! Like he’s trying to talked like Vice Ganda and it’s the worst ever!!!!!!! He’s really trying very hard and he’s really the opposite of my bestfriend’s first love!!! The fact that he’s not funny on his “own natural way” turns me off. I wish he’s just silent or observant before he reveal his true “color” And the unforgivable on top of it was that, my bestfriend acts like she’s so proud of her boyfriend that there was an incident where she’s screaming, “Bakit mo naman ni reveal sa BOYFRIENDKO! hindi ko na nga sinasabi sa BOYFRIENDKO! blahblahblah eklaver BOYFRIEND KO!”

Okay, I get it. You’re too excited because it’s new and amazing. But will please act normal and slow down your hyperness before I knock you both on the head? MYGAAAD IT’S EMBARRASSING!

And whenever we talked, she’s always, boyfriend this and boyfriend that, boyfriend this, that boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend. Can’t she see I’m not INTERESTED? I’m not, and she can figure it out. But she just keep on talking about him and her and their moments anyway.

DEEP SIGHED. Dear Lord, forgive me for betraying my bestfriend by writing my rants about her here. Am I backstabbing her with my fingers and keyboard? I don’t think so. I just don’t …. approve her relationship with that guy. That’s all.

Uhm, this post wasn’t all about my rant to my very thrilled bestfriend having a boyfriend but about my endless love for books. If I wasn’t blessed for reading two amazing books in one year, then tell me will there be a third book?

One Day by David Nicholls and Before ever after by Samantha Sotto. I’ll tell no words. I was sweep away by this two amazing books. You should read, you should read. And don’t tell me I’m a sucker for great love stories because these two books are far different from your y’know, usual romance pocketbooks.

Dex and Em, Max and Shelley.

My God, I can’t really recover. I just finished Before ever after this afternoon and I’m soooo inspired. (Sooo inspired that I’m planning to write my thing too. But ideas are too much to handle that it made me scared coz too much excitement will lead to dismay) And the fact that a fellow Filipina is the author made me so proud of being an aspiring Filipino writer. I finished One Day a month ago and till now, I haven’t actually recovered and I can still remember the moments where I was lying in my folding bed and crying because I’m so touched of the story. And mind you, it’s all true. It’s like it happened to me or like I’m experiencing it at the moment. There were too many questions lingered in my mind and when that happens, I know I’m reading a great book.

Max and Shelley’s adventure was magical and amazing. Basilisk and Baked eggs and Max calling Shelley, ”luv” moves me. And that time when Shelley thought Sari was the new woman in Max’s life made me cry! Because I can totally feel her undying love and faith for him!!!! And the ending surprised me to the bones. You should really grab a copy now! After I read the book I found myself wondering who will be my before,ever and after…

Sorry, I can’t really make a good review for the two. 

But swear, you won’t regret it.

BBBBYYYYYYYOOOOOOONG.